The most socially acceptable path is also the path with the greatest amount of internal resistance, that is to say the one I find least acceptable. The path I'm leaning towards is still well within the realm of socially acceptable, but not to the most immediate and powerful social influences upon me, my family. The path they wish for me to follow I refuse, though I have yet to do so outright.
The path of most resistance I cannot follow, not for lack of ability, but for lack of desire. It smothers me and pushes me down, nearly killing me. While it may work for some, any allure it once had has disappeared as the promises it held can be fulfilled by other means. What it pledged to me I can achieve under my own power and so its enticement has completely and utterly dissipated.
And so I find myself at the brink of a path which, though wholly acceptable to myself, will be trodden upon and browbeaten by my acquaintances. They deem it a waste of my abilities, but who has any right to judge that unless by some miracle of nature or hypothetical god they have fully utilized their own. The path they would have me follow will kill me. Though I may physically survive it, in order to do so I would have to sacrifice a part of who I am which I will not relinquish.
-redbishopii
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